jeudi, mai 13, 2004 Okay, so I'm in a quandary right now. For those of you who don't know, I've been sort of re-assigned a job - I used to do graphic design and website management, and now, I'm the Ft. Manager. Granted, it's a better title than plain old "Administrative Officer", but now, instead of doing graphic design, I'm talking to contractors, getting quotations to buy lockers, getting the sofas cleaned - basically, I'm a high-paid maid. Should I leave, or should I stay? If I stay,++ Pros ++ + I get that 80% discount on my masters (which they haven't offered me yet, but which they should because I'm GREAT) + I work in a pretty cushy environment + I've got neat colleagues (some of them anyway) + I don't have to be at work on-the-dot, so long that I get my work done + I'm familiar with the environment in school + I get time on the job to study + I have time to do my church stuff, which is a lot of stuff -- Con -- - I am not really enjoying the work. I can do it, and I think I'm handling it pretty well, but I'm doing it with disinterest. Lights in the toilet blown? Just get someone to fix them, what do I care? Only now, I'm supposed to care, cos it's my damned JOB to do so. Who cares about a stupid tile on the floor? - What does a Ft. Manager have got to do with any of the following fields: Public Relations, Corporate Communications, Literature, Poetry, Drama, the arts in general, Marketing, Teaching (yes, don't laugh)? This list is definitely weighted - just cos there's 2 points in the Con column doesn't mean that I should stay. My colleague told me I was stupid for not leaving the Cons for Republic Poly - "You wanted to work here when you could have been a teacher in Poly?!" was her incredulous response, in fact. On hindsight, perhaps the loyalty to stay at the Cons was a little misplaced (RP only called me with an offer after I had worked two months at the Cons), but everything is always 20/20 on hindsight, so I'm not going to beat myself up over this decision already made. Now the question is - am I making a bigger mistake staying with the Cons even though I'm doing something which is absolutely bizarro and totally out of what I want to do with my life? I may not know what I WANT, but this really doesn't feel like it. I don't doubt that the stuff I'm doing now isn't teaching me things - but are the lessons I want to learn? Are they things I want to spend my only 23rd year of life learning? They'll come in handy in terms of extraneous knowledge (like, how to ask for three quotations, how to buy a large number of student lockers, where to get upholstery cleaned, how to handle and scold contractors etc), but it seems to me that it's really far away from what I thought I'd be doing when I came in. Graphic design to estate management? Does any of this make sense? To add to the confusion, today, while reading TPDL,: Servants remember that God owns it all. In the Bible, a steward was a servant entrusted to manage an estate. ... they willingly accept jobs that... people would consider "beneath" them. Say it with me: quandary. [Quandary] |
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