samedi, août 06, 2005 Navel gazing has given me a backache My back has acted up again, probably because I carried a hard guitar case down two stories after the prayer summit yesterday night. This really, really sucks, and A. Jenny is going to accompany me to the chinese sinseh tomorrow to see if there's anything that can be done. I was in so much pain today that I actually called up an accupuncturist shop to see if they were open at 5pm on a Saturday (they weren't.) Ironic that I would want someone to stick needles in me to heal the pain, but there you have it - desperate times call for desperate measures. Has anyone gone for accupuncture before? Does it work? Does it hurt? How long does it take? Please tag or comment - I really want to know.On top of the ache I feel in my lower back (more like shooting pains there and in my legs), I also have to move my brain a lot this weekend - my supervisor has come to the conclusion that I don't really "get" the subject matter that he assigned me to do (which I don't, so he's right), and we've decided that I have to come up with a new topic by this weekend. On one hand, this is a huge load off my back - I really did try to understand, but most of the time, I thought "this is just bullshit", or "this is just spin", or "isn't this common sense?" So I suppose, changing a dissertation topic is the best thing that I could have done. I'm trying to focus on ICT for development (ICT4D), humanitarian efforts in Asia, and developmental work. Broad strokes, which I am desperately trying hard to narrow down. The best and worst thing about this is that my supervisor truly believes me capable of handling anything I set myself to do. I blame my previous supervisor for telling blatant lies about me to him, telling him that I'm worth my weight in gold, or something to that extent. Lies, all lies! I'd really prefer it if he didn't have any expectations of me, and then it would be so much easier to surpass anything that he was demanding. If that sounds like I'm taking the easy way out, well - you try walking a mile in my shoes! I'm living in perpetual fear that I'm going to trip and fall flat on my face. So now I'm at home, trying hard to come up with a research topic. Uh... how does one do that again? [Navel gazing has given me a backache] |
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